2 posts tagged “ponderings”
Well a lot has happened since my return from Guatemala. A lot. My first week back was a weird one. I worked very little, thought a lot, solicited work, and caught up with my wife.
Two days before I left for Guatemala, I took my car in for a flat tire, and was reminded that we need four new tires. A bill, I was not excited about. I decided to let that decision wait until my return to the country (and purchased only the one tire I needed at the time). Now that I am back, I have had another flat tire, leading to the purchase of the other three tires. Woo! Some decisions make themselves. None the less that was an expense I wasn't looking forward to.
The week I got back from Guatemala I wrote a couple emails out to different people. One to a friend that I know that works for a large real estate company, and one to the AV company I work with. I also had scheduled an interview at the casino that is being built just NE of where I live. I went in to interview for the fine dining server position. While I was in the parking lot I ran into a couple guys from the Installations company I have worked with before. They are doing the installation of the 150 televisons, and 175 speakers going into the casino. They offered me full time work through the end of October. Later that day I got a call from the large real estate company that my friend works for, and I checked my email and the AV company had offered me about 10 shifts over the next three weeks. Needless to say I didn't feel too worried about my finances/job situation for the next couple months. However, there were a lot of decisions to be made.
I got hired for the Fine Dining Server position at the new casino. In the mean time I am working full time with Installations company until the training starts. I am excited about the opportunity, and curious to see how it will go. I have been offered full time hours with benefits. I just want to see if I can back up the benefits with the cashflow we need. The job starts training on Oct 15th.
My parents and sister Sara land on Oct 16th. That will be an interesting week. I will work for the installations company Monday and Tuesday. The restaurant wants me to train the rest of the week. I'm hoping I can work something out with them as I don't get to see my family much. I am very excited to see them and am glad they are coming.
Red Robin has been a big dissapointment because they really didn't embrace me. I never felt like they wanted me there after the second week. Oh well. That leaves me to job hunt some more, and look where I am now.
Flag Football started last week. It is something that I am really enjoying. I'm glad that my family will be in town for a game, that should be fun. Our team is not as together as they seemed last year. I hope we can come together some more before we get too much further.
I am working on sending out my thank you letters for those who supported me on my trip to Guatemala. I have been waiting on a few pictures from some others who went on the trip. I dislike waiting on others when it comes to things like this. I would have preferred to mail out my letters two weeks ago. Thanks very much to each of you who helped me to go!
Well that is enough rambling for now. God bless you all.
I have been reading through some of my older journal entries in an effort to remember a few things. In my perusing, I found this journal entry that I have decided to include here for all to view. I wrote this in March of 2001. Occasionally, I will think deeply on something and draw some new conclusions in my life. This is an excellent illustration of one of those times. Feel free to comment.
Everyone has emotions. It is inhumane and unreasonable to deny them, or to quench them. No one is meant to be ruled by them, but they are there for a reason. I have been on a walk to learn what role emotions should play in my life. As a leader others need to see emotion in me. It makes me ‘real.’ I need to lay aside any thoughts that I can do this life on my own. I need others, and others will need me. Love is a powerful, powerful thing. God is love! I don’t understand love, but no one does fully. Love is one of the greatest motivators of humankind. Everyone desires to be loved and to share love. Everyone desires to find a special someone to share love and life together with. Most songs, movies, other creative acts are centered on a theme of love. Love is the quickest thing to bring pain. It is inherent that the people we love the most, we hurt the most because of our flawed ability to love. That is why we need the God of Love at the center of our relationships, so He can show us pure love. Self-love is a big hole that many fall into once denied. It is a sticky pit, impossible to climb out of alone.
We are immature in our love, but what else can be expected? Our love for each other consumes us, forcing us to change and to give our all. Our love is very recognizable from the outside by the actions we take, the way we interact. It is truly a God given love.
Battles, wars, and struggles will come. That is when we need others the most. Sometimes we win, and sometimes we lose. Every time we need the support, acceptance, and love of others to be there. Sometimes we have to carry others for awhile, and sometimes we have to be carried. Evil will step in and do its best to split love relationships. That is when we must battle the hardest to remain together. Together the evil can be conquered, but separate we fall.
Sometimes things in the future that we don’t even know about can affect us. God sits in and throughout all time. He knows and wants what’s best for us. He sees something in the future and allows us to deal with it in the present. Sometimes those future things must be dealt with now before they can get strong. In the future evil will be destroyed, and we will be united. I believe that promise from God.
